Since it’s been so warm up until the snow, I figured the migrant eagles and swans would have moved on, but we saw several flocks of swans grazing in wet fields. And best of all the sight that always makes my heart skip a beat, pairs in flight. The impressive power of shoulder muscles that propel them and keep them aloft, their wingbeats in perfect time, the stretch of their elegant necks, and the way they curve together and circle slowly to land. A lovely sight that lifts my spirits and lingers pleasantly in memory until early next spring when they’ll come again.
Now, to sight the snow geese flocks’ murmuration over the tulip and potato fields as they rise and school like fish, calling incessantly to each other, and spring will be complete, until tulip time.
Fasted overnight, had blood drawn for lab work first thing, then mammo, now with added sonogram and consult at every visit. Thank goodness I got my lisence renewed on Thursday after the dentist, or the afternoon would have included a visit to DMV. That's a lot of don' wanna on one day.
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I’ve been wanting, for a while, to “look more queer,” and the more I contemplate this as a direct goal, the more annoyed/fascinated I become at the disconnect between the signal I’m trying to send (“gay femme here!!”) and the actual actions I have to spend my time on in order to SEND that signal. Every time I see someone and love the way they look, I think to myself, "I wanna look like that! But without having to take any of the actions which lead someone to have that appearance."
By that I mean— if I want an eclectic and fabulous wardrobe with lots of accessories, I have to spend a lot of time SHOPPING. But I don’t particularly like shopping! It’s not a love of shopping that makes me gay! Or if I want a hip, queer haircut (rather than looking I belong in the movie for Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire), I need to schedule regular haircuts. But making, and then showing up on time to, recurring boring appointments isn't gay! The things which would help me look queer actually have nothing to do with being queer. Taking clothes to a tailor isn't gay! Waking up early to have time to put on makeup isn't gay!
Maybe if I was already investing more time and errand-power in my appearance, it would be simpler, to just buy gayer things when I go shopping, ask for a gayer haircut when I go for my regular haircut, add a bit of sparkle when I do my morning skincare routine, etc. But as much as I like feeling cute, I just... think of myself as a low-maintenance person. I actually might be a shabby side character in a Dickens novel, I'm maybe-too-little-maintenance. But right now I can go from unconscious to walking out the door in 10 minutes. This pleases me! This should be reconcilable with people being able to detect that I am gay??
So far I've taken the strategy of, when I am no longer able to avoid purchasing new clothes, I make sure to pick something as queer-looking as possible, so that my low-maintenance no-thinking routine is at least drawing from a more fabulous base pool of options. Also I wear a trans flag on my lapel and a rainbow stud earring in one ear. This is working, slowly but surely, but even its effectiveness feels perverse somehow: I am no gayer than I was before, but I look gayer over time through semi-begrudging investment of effort in unrelated tasks.
ALL OF WHICH IS TO SAY, I have been getting kinda into painting my nails, and I think I like it in part because the actual underlying work of producing the fabulous femme appearance actually suits who I am as a person. Once a week or so I can take an hour or two at 4am, with an audiobook on, to do something that feels like "crafting" (i.e., painting something fussy), all of which is already stuff I like to do. And then I have something very cute about my appearance to be proud of!! (See: my first complete manicure, left, of which I was VERY proud!!!) So I guess this is a problem I've "solved."
Nonetheless, it still feels odd, somehow, that "self-expression" clearly seems to require supporting labour that may or may nor be at all harmonious with a natural "self."
 At any point in time I only have one pair of shoes that don't have holes in the soles (my special shoes for when the ground is wet!). I routinely wear clothes that are missing buttons, because I never quite get around to sewing them back on. I would fix these things if I minded them! (I fix things in my apartment every day! I polish the bathroom fixtures several times a week so they are always shiny! I straighten all of my doilies before bed at night!) But I don't mind, particularly!
 I get food and coffee on the way -- if I place a mobile order while walking down my hallway before my phone is out of range of the apartment wifi, it will be ready for me exactly as I walk through the Starbucks on my corner, so I literally don't even have to break my stride.
 There's a comparison to be made to home decoration, actually, in the "restore a castle" vein -- beautifying slowly over time... that's the approach I've taken with my apartment, which has been accumulating bits of ribbon and lace and doilies to encuten its generic IKEA furniture. I still don't love shopping for home goods but they feel easier to acquire, and I definitely enjoy putting them around the house and looking after them.
Theme: 7 ways to cook a human in
5+1 6+1 style
7 Ways to Cook a Human
3. Deep Frying (to completely submerge food in hot fat)
Will tried to focus, but Jack’s voice was background noise. It was an irritation, but it paled in comparison to the heat that was surrounding him and burning him alive from the inside out.
[H]is smile went with him everywhere. The typists declared that he slept in it, and hand-washed it at weekends.
-The Honourable Schoolboy
Forty is a difficult age at which to stay awake, he decided. At twenty or at sixty the body knows what it’s about, but forty is an adolescence where one sleeps to grow up or to stay young.
-The Honourable Schoolboy
The whole house gently asserted an air of old age; it had a quality, like incense, of courteous but inconsolable sadness.
-The Looking Glass War
2. The CR stuff has been making me poke at Skald and the rest of the Wednesday 'verse. My brain reminded me of that one Teen Wolf fic where Derek has to communicate in song lyrics ("I've got a curse I cannot lift") and I've idly been trying to figure out how Skald would tell her story via song lyric. It's ... diverse.
3. The bit of Umbrella Academy I've seen was okay. I think the color palette is too desaturated. I think that about a lot of comic book adaptations. I like my comic books to be four color pleaseandthankyou. Casting seems decent. The kid playing Five is killing it so far. I'm enjoying Allison. I like what I've seen of Klaus and Ben's relationship. Like several other people have said I think I need to dig out my comics and reread. Saw on scans_daily that there was a third series.
(Catch me next time talking about shot composition and the evolution of visual language of film in regards to cameras...)
Title: I keep trying to speak of loving but all I speak about is acts of war and acts of war and acts of war
Fandom: Red vs. Blue
Characters/Pairings: Agent Carolina/Vanessa Kimball
Length: 2395 words
Rating: Teen & Up
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Summary: You are not responsible for an inability to succeed in an impossible situation.
This fic for all its brief length is a really meaty exploration of Kimball's personality and mindset, and Carolina's as seen through Kimball's eyes. I love it for many of the same reasons I love "But Only When Skilfully Tied" by the same author, for the worldbuilding and the politics but most of all for its treatment of both characters, insights into the lives that have made them who they are, and the affinity one feels growing between them despite their differences.
( Read on AO3 )
Fandom: Agent Carter
Link: On AO3
Pairing: Peggy/Daniel; pre-Peggy/Jack/Daniel
Other tags: Hurt/comfort, Rescue, Head injuries, Overheard conversations, Love confessions (sort of)
Summary: Peggy and Jack rescue Daniel, and have half of a conversation during the car ride back. For a tumblr prompt.
( “Can you—” Peggy broke off with a grunt, a muffled curse, a stumble that jostled the surface Daniel was lying on. A stretcher, if an improvised one. Something flat and moving. Scratchy warm material pressed down on him, but his bare foot was burning with cold. )
So the focus was on motion, and beginning motion before meeting your partner and getting them off balance from that first contact. Which. Hard? Fun! Very fun when you have good partners.
Less fun when you are also just barely over being sick and spend the second half of class really zonked and only soooort of functional, but it's okay 'cause aikido's in your body enough that you can just, like, move and you'll be fine. You can do this.
...anyway the last thing we did was any-technique practice, which is the best-worst thing when you're very tired, because you can't think! Not thinking is in some ways good, because you don't care and therefore you just do whatever. However, you also often end up only doing a few whatevers, and that is... less good! When the point is variety. Which I think it sort of was? Sensei was switching us after an irregular number of throws that I think was about variety as much as anything else.
Also today it snowed a little, light and fluffy and beautiful, and it was almost relaxing to shovel 'cause it was so much nicer than any of the other snows.
I baked brownies, finally; I'd meant to this weekend but I was sick. It's good to have chocolate around (that I can eat -- there's plenty of other stuff but I am too lactose-intolerant for it).
I also got to see my girlfriend for a bit! It's nice having her over here sometimes; I usually go to her place, 'cause it's quieter and also not full of as much stuff (or as many people), but if L comes here she gets to pet the cats. So, y'know. Important to have her over sometimes.
This week is break week for the schools, except that HW district said 'nah we wanna get out earlier so we aren't doing that', so... maybe I will work this week! It depends on what the openings are.
Has anyone set up an AO3 feed for fanvids?
This is what a finished video file typically looks like
Self-Curated Vidshow Challenge
Trelkez recently ran a self-curated vidshow challenge, which were released on 2/9. There were 47 vidshows by 31 different vidders.
VidUKon, the UK's vidding convention, is seeking premieres and other programming. The deadline for premieres is May 13, and anyone can make one, regardless of attendance at the con. The post also contains some info about other important dates in the run-up to VidUKon.
What I’m reading:
- Performative feminism and the cool guy and ooh boy do I have Thoughts. There will probably be a rant about that sometime soon.
- The Expanse series. I’m about halfway through Cibola Burn and I’m enjoying them pretty well? I’ve got a few stylistic bones to pick with the authors but other than that. Like, I actually could get behind Miller/Julie in Leviathan Wakes, possibly because I didn’t have the visual.
- Alllllll of the short stories on this Hugo rec post from the ladybusiness comm
What I’m watching: Brooklyn 99, of course. I also finished up this season of The Good Place and I love that Eleanor stepped into Michael’s role.
What I’m writing:
- A ficlet about Opportunity, being late, and meeting discworld’s death for the fandomweekly comm. I’ll post it here and on AO3 after the voting is done
- The leverage/AoS crossover
- road song
- NOT history’s longest suicide note because brain bad, words hard. Even though the next chapter is ready to go. Even though I’m interested in where it’s going. Fuck executive dysfunction. It’s the Actual Worst.
Final Notes: One cannot fail to love a dragon.
Also, I was all excited to send in my tax returns today, but TurboTax is now telling me that the CRA isn't letting them netfile anything until the end of the month due to a bunch of last minute changes they want made to the software. I certainly hope said changes result in me getting a bigger refund. :|
I just want to accomplish things. q_q
We were down five on six for most of this game, but we did hold back their first push, and this was part of why. Like ducks, all in a row, at the amusement park.
(We did not hold back their second push. We did, again, on second point, but not as well, and then lost, despite finally getting a sixth player.)